Meaningful...

We sang this on Sunday.

"God of My Days" from Gateway Worship

You awaken my heart from slumbering
Meet me in mourning, and You speak to my grief
You're the light in my darkness, the delight of my eyes
The hope of the daybreak when the sun's slow to rise
I trust that every moment's in Your hands

You're the God of my days, the King of my nights
Lord of my laughter, sovereign in sorrow
You're the Prince of my praise, the love of my life
You never leave me, You are faithful, God of my days

You unveil my eyes, help me to see
The arms of my Father encircling me
You're a constant companion, I am never alone
Your love is the banner that's leading me home
I trust that every moment's in Your hands

You're the God of my days, the King of my nights
Lord of my laughter, sovereign in sorrow
You're the Prince of my praise, the love of my life
You never leave me, You are faithful, God of my days

My eyes are on You, my hope is in You
My faith is in You
My eyes are on You, my hope is in You
My faith is in You

God of my days, the King of my nights
Lord of my laughter, sovereign in sorrow
You're the Prince of my praise, the love of my life
You never leave me, You are faithful God of my days



Here's another song that's really meant a lot to me.

Blessed Be Your Name by Matt Redman

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

I think these songs have special meaning to me because of my miscarriages. As the second song says, "there's pain in the offering". I want to offer all my children to God for His service. J and I have left our childbearing in God's hands, and there has been pain in that offering. I know others have experienced far worse pains in their lives, but for me, this is the worst I know so far. He gives and takes away... and I will bless His name.

I remember the first time we sang Blessed Be Your Name. We sang the first lines:
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be Your name
and I thought, "Yes, God is good".

Then we sang the second lines:
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
and after a pause I realized how often we forget to praise Him in our suffering.

I CAN praise Him because I KNOW he is good and faithful and he will work my suffering for good.