Meaningful...

We sang this on Sunday.

"God of My Days" from Gateway Worship

You awaken my heart from slumbering
Meet me in mourning, and You speak to my grief
You're the light in my darkness, the delight of my eyes
The hope of the daybreak when the sun's slow to rise
I trust that every moment's in Your hands

You're the God of my days, the King of my nights
Lord of my laughter, sovereign in sorrow
You're the Prince of my praise, the love of my life
You never leave me, You are faithful, God of my days

You unveil my eyes, help me to see
The arms of my Father encircling me
You're a constant companion, I am never alone
Your love is the banner that's leading me home
I trust that every moment's in Your hands

You're the God of my days, the King of my nights
Lord of my laughter, sovereign in sorrow
You're the Prince of my praise, the love of my life
You never leave me, You are faithful, God of my days

My eyes are on You, my hope is in You
My faith is in You
My eyes are on You, my hope is in You
My faith is in You

God of my days, the King of my nights
Lord of my laughter, sovereign in sorrow
You're the Prince of my praise, the love of my life
You never leave me, You are faithful God of my days



Here's another song that's really meant a lot to me.

Blessed Be Your Name by Matt Redman

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

I think these songs have special meaning to me because of my miscarriages. As the second song says, "there's pain in the offering". I want to offer all my children to God for His service. J and I have left our childbearing in God's hands, and there has been pain in that offering. I know others have experienced far worse pains in their lives, but for me, this is the worst I know so far. He gives and takes away... and I will bless His name.

I remember the first time we sang Blessed Be Your Name. We sang the first lines:
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be Your name
and I thought, "Yes, God is good".

Then we sang the second lines:
Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
and after a pause I realized how often we forget to praise Him in our suffering.

I CAN praise Him because I KNOW he is good and faithful and he will work my suffering for good.

I am really tired of the word "sexy".

Now we have a toilet paper commercial where a puppy is talking about being sexy!? What does that have to do with tp and why do the advertisers think it necessary?

We're trying to teach our daughters that they don't need to wear make-up, jewelry and perfume or dress in the latest fashions and hair styles to be beautiful. Everywhere they're bombarded with the opposite.

There is almost nothing on television that we allow our children to watch. Something we think is safe suddenly takes a turn and we don't know it's coming. When we do allow them to watch something we always turn it off during commercials.

There are a few shows J & I watch, but when I see things that I would not want my children to see it's hitting me harder and harder. It's too easy for them to walk in the room and see something I don't want them to. Some days I want to get rid of the tv all together. We do have some uses for it, though, so I doubt we'll ever get rid of it.

I'm an information junkie.

That can be a bad thing, of course, but I love learning about things. Well, certain things anyway.

I just got a few new books that I'm reading through: Mother Food: A Breastfeeding Diet Guide with Lactogenic Foods and Herbs - Build Milk Supply, Boost Immunity, Lift Depression, Detox, Lose Weight, Optimize a Baby's IQ, and Reduce Colic and Allergies http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0979599504/ref=ox_ya_oh_product, and The Vaccine Book: Making the Right Decision for Your Child http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0316017507/ref=ox_ya_oh_product.

They have been very interesting and informative so far.

I also got The Breastfeeding Mother's Guide to Making More Milk, which I haven't started yet http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/007159857X/ref=ox_ya_oh_product.

I've got plenty of milk for LG and she's gaining very well, better, I think, than my other babies did. But while my babies have always been content, they seem skinny compared to some. I'm not looking for a fat baby, but I have seen that when I pump there's not a lot of fat on top of the milk. The book I'm reading addressess that.

TJ got some money for his birthday and he wanted another Where's Waldo book. They don't print them any more so I ordered him a used copy along with my books. He is really into I Spy books, too. I found several new I Spy books at a closeout store and gave them to him for his birthday. He was thrilled. He wanted to get the next Waldo book, too. He can look at them for an hour it seems. It's a rare time that he isn't moving! I'll have to get a picture.